Kamis, 19 Desember 2019

Hiro Birth Story

I walk every morning to stay healthy.Waiting on due date was so mixing feels. Anxious, frightened, worried, excited, become in one package. There are a lot different good ad bad pregnancy story but I keep the positive mind and think everything's gonna be alright.

36 weeks is my last ultrasound appointment and I can't see my baby's face because he already moves toward me. Sadly an umbilical cord has seen on Obgyn's screen. Obgyn said everything's okay and asked me to come back next month.

38 weeks is age of maturity of my fetus and my heart start to pump higher whether labor sign would come soon or later. My husband only have 2 weeks permission from his job. We should decide the perfect time so he could be my side when our love born. 39 weeks he's home but I've no sign for labor. I continuing my workout likewise and start other new things to induce my labor such as harvesting palm coconut tree so i do a lot of squats.

I woke up while due date has reached out but I feel nothing. Riski already a week with me and he only have another a week to go. If I'm not deliver between 7 day or so I will give birth without him. So, I search on internet how to induce labor that told me that massage could induce it then I go for it.

11:30, Friday I finished massage. 18.30 my water broke while riding motorcycle with my husband. We want to go to night market and directly meet our midwife. I try to walk but I think that's not a good idea because the water flew out. I wait my husband to bought me a cup of cane water then we go straight to midwife place. No contraction. She checked me and it's just half opening. So, she send us to hospital.

I got infusion as obgyn said so and wait until 24 hours. If contraction has no progress they'll take action. 10 o'clock of the next day, I checked and it only 1 opening. So, they put induction in my infusion water. After that I can't remember anything what time and how's my progress. The induction pain me more especially in my lower back. I remember I was give up in the middle of it's way but a midwife supporting me well so I could passed it and keep my mind to have a normal labor.

18.30 They checked me again and I was on 8, ready to deliver. A baby inside me want to get out that time. I can't handle that. Thanks God time to push come. This is my first labor experience an I'm suck with pushing. I have no idea how to push so better for first time mother wanna be to learn how to push before the real time coming. I was push with noise and wrong breathing technique. So, the midwife do episiotomy to help my little one because his head at the door.

There he is! Healthy young boy 2,7 kg, 47 cm named Hiro arrived. He's so cute and looks like me. The new path as parent just start right after midwife sew my private area to fix it up. Its such a big calm inside my heart. After 40 weeks I cant take my deep breath, lay and rest awhile. Ready for the next rock!

Minggu, 12 Mei 2019

Compare

There are a lot of differences from developed country and developing country. Every society has their own life. They have their own way to do something stuff but different way. Let say for example, when you live in Canada, people who cook in Canada most of them are man but when you are in Indonesia most of man never cooking.

What we going to do just let the perspective goes by it way. Appreciate anything that people had for their own thing. When you have different perspective so just try to open your mind for what people trying to tell you about. never underestimate something than what you expected. Because sometime we do something worse that than people done.

Be kindness is the important thing because you can have more time to observe what are you doing alright or wrong. It's help a lot when you let the life flow but do not over flowing that it situation more. No matter it, just keep it balance and never do highest or shortest but what we can do only do higher or shorter.

One thing that must we knowing are process is more important that it look like as people.

Daily Activity

Okay, so I'll will write what usually i do everyday. Five O'clock I wake up and then take ablution. When I feel fresh I start my subuh pray. After that I take my book and read them until i feel it's enough for me because in the morning is a really good time for my brain to think and almost all of the thing that I read i can catch them 70%.

I drop out from my school because i didn't have enough money. So I work at goverment office as a cleaning service. Usually I use their computer to learn about anything that I want to know like health, economy, sport, science etcetera. I really love to learn by this way because i didn't need money to having some knowledge for my self.

When I back home, I feel so tired so I take a nap and after that I'm cooking for my self for dinner. I'll probably do something that i love. Like singing, playing guitar, or reading and writing. Finnaly I'm going to bed and sleep.

I feel that god care enough with my life because I still found the way to reach the knowledge that I wanna learn. I'm lucky everysecond of my breath. :D

Reactive Myself

Ought, I defence my self from lazy thing like lying on the bed about 12hours a day. It's just wasting my time as a human on the earth. Nothing much that I can do except let it flow. I create my character based on my mood although I already know that to become an opposite than it I must press my self onto automatic movement. When it created I'll found that it easier than I thought.

So, today i have my spirit on to do something like this, you know. I write what was on my brain and i pour it as a writing thing. I really love when i can read and write because i feel that i still an empty glass and i need more water. Read when I'm empty and write when i feel that i need space to use another water.

I do believe what I've done are what will i get in the future. No mater it bad or good. No matter it small or big. Just flowing the process that i already write before to become my ideology. Although it always wrong but i believe it worth it after.

For anyone who read this don't be afraid about problem that you get today because it already written by you before you come in this earth. Always be cool when you try to resolve it.

Jumat, 18 Januari 2019

Situation on Decide

Playing with a big team in Jakarta make me realized how poor people could become to make their place safe. I knew one person who before an easy going person suddenly become so annoying and arrogant after she got the highest place in team. It’s not a hardwork she become in that place. It’s because a nepotistic racism which they bring into this big city. Then suddenly i found my dear friend who were captained us to the glory become no body.
I’m trying to deal with it and let it by. But it’s impacting my career and improvement. At the end of one tour I realized that it’s time for me to stop. I have lost my importance just because of a wrong leader who has big egos. I don’t want her to lead me!
Then I’ Questioning my self “why I should stay still in this circumstance?” Thats not good for my mental health, I better move on, my life must go on and find another way for me to grow and living my life.
Talk!
I have tried several time and it has limit trying to tell somebody. I’d be honest about me and my group but he see’s nothing. “All is fine,” he said. I made my decision to be out for this fake team. Everything that your think fine actually has more complicated than you think and when the time comes it will be a bomb.
Yes, I have made an excuse, I messed up but I have my life and freedom to be me.

Senin, 27 Februari 2017

A Journey



YOGYAKARTA 
(UNEXPECTED JOURNEY)

Unexpected thing could bring you something awesome to your life

                A late girl talk in my rent house which is lived by 5 ladies. Suddenly said, “do you guys busy this weekend?” one by one telling their schedulle and it’s a free time for all. Then we decide to go to Jogja (yokyakarta) together and directly booking for train tickets.
                We book tickets from Pasar Senen Station (Jakarta) to Lempunyangan Station (Yogyakarta) for Rp 220.000,- each ticket even we could get a cheaper one. We booked the tickets 3 days before departure and we started the journey to Jogja.
                It spend almost 9 hours to arrive in Lempuyangan Station. We reach that place in 15.00 WIB (local time). 

First destination (Ny. Kamto)
                Ny. Kamto is a small pempek (Palembang traditional food) restaurant which located in Jogja. Their open hour is from 10 am – 10 pm. The most favorite menu for as is pempek selam with Rp 13.000,- price per pieces. I am trying two kind of pempek but the most delicious one is pempek selam. Pempek selam is better than pempek kulit which made by fish skin and flavour. It more delicious when we pour the special soup for pempek.
                Before we visit the next destination, we are a little bit confused to decide where we shoud stay for 3 days in Jogja. Then we walk here and there without nobody except the internet. We can saw where we could stay in a cheap cost. We found a really cheaper one but it needs 30 minutes walk.
                We are sitting in the edge of the road while found a good one but suddenly a group of musician approaching us and asking for some money. That’s true. In Indonesia, a group of musician who you found in the way or public transportation are really a trouble. They are singing for a bit but asking much. They also hiding behind their skin full of tatoes, any hanging things in their ears and their whatever hair style. It’s more trouble in Jakarta. They usually asking for your coin in Metro Mini or a kind of bus colored orange. Its more scary and you just give them your coin because they are coming not for singing but only and just for your coin. Imagine, without doing something, just talk and asking for you money. What an annoying thing, right?
                Finally, we decided a hotel but when we arrived near the hotel, it so far from city. So, we ask Pak Kusir (a traditional transportation in Jogja moved by horse) to drop us in his recommended hotel. Then we are okay with his second recommendation.
                We are coming to Jogja without any destination plan. Fortune has come to us, one of my friend who studying in Jogja offering me to drive us anywhere we want to go. It was accepted with a pleasant. And that’s the end of February, 17 night.

February, 18
Prambanan Temple       
               
One big thing in Jogja is Prambanan Temple. This place is great place to visit. The mith of this place was made by a man to a woman because of love. The woman who rejected the man with honest said, ‘if you can build me thousand temples and two deep wheel in one night then I will marry you’. But, the man says yes and ask ghosts to help him. The woman who knows that the building almost finished ask local girls to voice their traditional rice grinder. The ghost heard the grinder voice and thought that the sun has rised. Then, the last temple wasn’t finish which means the man has failed his mission to get the woman.
Now, Prambanan already become a tourist destination and the most famous place in Jogja. So, people says you are not coming to Jogja if you are not visit this place yet or taking any picture. And here we go, my picture in Prambanan Temple. FYI, I’ve waiting this moment for 10 years. I went to Prambanan 10 years ago with my taekwondo group after competition, but I can’t enter the temple for some reason from my coach.

Puncak Becici

                What is special thing here while you can see only pine trees? Yes, Puncak Becici is a pine forest. But, the best thing for picturing yourself is this one.


                You have to be careful to take this picture.. you also need patient when you come here on the weekend because everyone will make a line just to snap snap. Pine forest is a booming recreation place in Jogja. Puncak Becici is one of another exist pine forest.

a stair to heaven, yaawwww

Kebun Buah Mangunan

                After so excited taking picture in Puncak Becici, we are lost of willing to take another picture in Kebun Buah Mangunan. This place also offered an highness. Before I came to this place, I thought I would found bunch of fruits but there nothing there. You will only got fruits if you willing to and based in my opinion, you better not to buy fruit in recreation place because it would cost you more. Then what we do there is only a crazy thing. We do zumba with slogan zumba everywhere. Hahaha
                Everybody love zumba in my renthouse. We always fill our freetime in the morning or afternoon with this activities. We are maybe not an expert zumbaist yet. We still using youtube as a resouce. It has bunch of zumba video that we can follow and so much time. We did those things and almost remember full of the movement.

Pantai Kesirat

                Last destination in February 19 but the best place we went. It not like an usually beach. It has no sand or swimming area. The best point of this beach is the sunset. For sure, we passed the best sunset I ever seen in this place. 
                What we can do in this place are taking pictures, see the sunset and camping.


February, 19 

Ketep Pass
               We can see Merbabu Mt. and Merapi Mt. from this place. People said it’s the best view of those two mountains if there was no cloud. Unfortunatelly, we had no chance to see them at them time with cloudy weather. The only uniq one is a welcome dance from local people welcoming tourists. It’s a simple dance and very Javanese. At the first time I see it, I thought it was Kuda Lumping Dance because all of the dancer wear a black glasses.
                Its same. Taking picture is a must in every destination we have visited!

Bakso Kerikil Malang
                It’s a long way to Malang actually. It takes arround 3 hours and we arrived exactly in lunch time. Then we agreed to eat Bakso Kerikil. This type of meatball made by the same ingredients the different thing is only the shape. Bakso Kerikil shaped small than the usual meatball.

Lawang Sewu
                This place mean much. As an Indonesian we can see it from the first time. Lawang also means door and Sewu means a thousand. So, the meaning of Lawang Sewu is thousand doors. It true that this place has a lot of doors. Its build since Ducth colonizing Indonesia. Well, I’m not born yet at that time. Hehe. What I can give to you is only the picture. J
                It has a scary ground floor which ever build to jail person. A lot of people also died in that place and that’s the reason why this place more scary at night.
                

February, 20
Tugu Jogja
                2 O’clock in the morning doesn’t trouble us to taking picture in front of Jogja monument.

We take the picture even with the last energy

Shopping Time at Malioboro
                Before we left Jogja, the last one should be buy Oleh-oleh. Even just for our self. We rent 2 Becak Motor for 5 people plus extra luggage :D…
                We went to Bakpia store, Batik store and stores along Malioboro street.

Train to Home


last, I would like to say thank you to all Yuni Kost Member who bring those happiness. 
 Thank you to my two friends who lived in Jogja, Sufi and unknown one (he wont me tell his name, keep it a secret he said) but I'll show you the picture of him HAHAHA
 


Kamis, 03 Maret 2016

Jam Karet

This is about how we do in organization meeting.

We are agree to meet at some place at 7 PM o'clock. And it starts at 9 PM. It starts with retalk about what we have talk before. And finally, some elder people come at 10 PM. And he ask about what we have talk then we talking about the same thing almost three times.

There are nothing much that we can talk about. We finished at 10.30 and the result is we have to look into tomorrow condition. How much kids would come then how much food we should serve and how can we success the event with just limited budget.

Another situation is here in my lovely campus. As a fellowship student we have to attend a workshop. They said it starts at 1 o'clock but in fact it starts at 1.49. I think this condition just wasting our time.

I was so angry about it. How come even an university cant make an event in time. A lot of unimportant chit-chat.

Next "jam karet" its happen again in my class. This is about our study tour plan for April 16th 2016. We are agree to start our discussion at 1 o'clock but we are not start yet in time because of some of us are not coming yet or not coming back to class again.

This is the really bad thing that i hate so much. Nobody seems care about other peoples time to rest or to have their private time. I hate this situation until I can't stand any even which is handled by people I know so weak about respecting time. What do you think we should do to decrease this kind of weakness?

I call this such a weakness because when we are not respecting time, even other people's work can't run properly. Which means we throw away our glorious time just to sit down and doing nothing except waiting.

But, everything has its own strength amd weakness. I said this 'jam karet' too has its own strength. You now what? If you are in my condition, then you will able to remind your self about what kind of even you should jump in and not.

Maybe, that is the good thing when you are in my condition. You will be able to choose to walk on your own way as you are.