Playing with a big team in Jakarta make me realized how poor people could become to make their place safe. I knew one person who before an easy going person suddenly become so annoying and arrogant after she got the highest place in team. It’s not a hardwork she become in that place. It’s because a nepotistic racism which they bring into this big city. Then suddenly i found my dear friend who were captained us to the glory become no body.
I’m trying to deal with it and let it by. But it’s impacting my career and improvement. At the end of one tour I realized that it’s time for me to stop. I have lost my importance just because of a wrong leader who has big egos. I don’t want her to lead me!
Then I’ Questioning my self “why I should stay still in this circumstance?” Thats not good for my mental health, I better move on, my life must go on and find another way for me to grow and living my life.
Talk!
I have tried several time and it has limit trying to tell somebody. I’d be honest about me and my group but he see’s nothing. “All is fine,” he said. I made my decision to be out for this fake team. Everything that your think fine actually has more complicated than you think and when the time comes it will be a bomb.
Yes, I have made an excuse, I messed up but I have my life and freedom to be me.
